wow, long time, no entry.
um, lately, I've been a lot better.
like a lot.
I just feel alive.
but I still have sudden outbursts of sadness.
but overall, I'm more happy then I am sad.
which is good. because I hate being sad
but today I felt pretty sad.
I just stayed at home and didn't do anything. I just felt pretty neglected.
that's all. just neglected and un-liked.
I hate when I mess things up.
oh, and I think I'm going to stop having feelings for people.
they never have them back, and,
why have feelings for people?
when everythnig you've ever felt for. is just feelingless towards you.
I don't like anybody right now, and I won't until I feel that I should.
which most likely means when I get skinny, then I can like people.
I'm sick of being the way I am.
inside and out.
I need a drastic change.
for the better of course.
<3