I really want to move.
like with my dad or something.
Just for a few months.
Then, I wouldn't have to deal with my mom making me feel like shit.
Always making me feel worse then I do about myself.
don't get me wrong, I'm not blaming it all on her, I'm a huge burden to her also.
I take things more serious when she says them to me,
Then again, why would she say the things she does if she didn't mean it.
I guess she's just honest.
I should know the truth by now, it hurts.
Not as much as I'd like to hurt myself right now.
I really want to hurt myself, like bad, I don't deserve to just live like this without some sort of punshment.
I hate just living right now.
I'm so sad, I just don't even want to live anymore.
I can't take this, I just want to sleep, never wake up.
I want to go away.
I want to feel purpose, I want a hug, really bad, just a long hug that never ends, I just want love.
is that really to much.
I feel so unstable right now, so unsafe, I'm scared of myself.
I, just want to leave just leave.
I don't want to be here, I really really don't want to be here.
I'm sorry for telling you my problems.
I just, I don't know.
I'd probally rather be at palos or something right now.
I don't know what to do.
<3